take time to enjoy

when i do my art work live many people ask, do you have a job... i say, you are looking at it. many people seem shocked that i make a living off what i do. some turn their noses up at me as if what they do is any better, a few are ecstatic when they learn that i am a full time artist. the see me as someone who brightens up the world, and for those few i have. its the few, that makes what i do enjoyable, its those few who make it possible to live off what i do. for those few understand i am there for them as much as i am there for myself.. i imagine that if the people who spend so much time judging took that time to enjoy instead, our world would be far more blissful.

random strangers

So yesterday I was working hte harbor, and about an hour had gone by and I still haven't made a dollar. I tossed out roses and no one was tipping. Needless to say I wasn't in the best of moods by the time the first hour had rolled around. at this point some people walk up and this one girl in the group asked, "do you have fun doing this." and I said, "fuck no this shit sucks", lO she comes back at me in 3 point 5 seonds and ays "way to sell yourself man" and I said ya I know sorry, its just been a rought day, I hve lots of fun when I am doing this and peope tip me for my roses, but alas no one has tipped me yet today. they just take and walk away." She gave back the rose I gave her and said, oh i am sorry w dont have any money, and I said look no I gave you the rose keep it, ten the guy with her and this other girl, says hey I have some herbs do you smoke, and i said hell yeah. so we go off and smoke a doobie, then they roll me another one that I can keep for later. total head change... So we walk back to the boardwalk, and she asked if I knew where she could fill up her water bottle. I showed her and when she came back from filling her water bottle she says, "you gave me my first orgasm of the day, by showing me the cold water. So afte they left I started making money. I was in a good money,m feeling light and fluffy. I raised the prices of my paintings to 20 each, or two for 30 and people actually bought my paintingts... its really strange how random strangers can walk into your ife whn you are feeling down, and without many words, or without much time spend they can come and lift up your spirits to help you make it through the day...



later on durring the day some people from austrailia came through and there was this guy he looked kinda like the guy from lost/ lord of the rings.... but he was just a head and a torso. yet this guy had the biggest smile I have ever seen. he was riding around on this wierd BMW box thing with wheels, and it seamed to move on hios thoughts.. very wierd machine, but it was cool... the coolest thing about this guy is that really all he has is his mind, yet he was this smoking hot girl riding on the bc of his machine, cuddling him like they where soul mates. she didn't care that he was just a torso, this girl loved this man with all her heart and you could plainly see it... Talk about a mind bender, here I am sometimes I am almost petrafied when I try talking to a woman, because of my own insecurities, thinking that my living situation would detour them, and some it would, but not all. and that's what I forget from time to time, but after seeing this, and seeing how this guy could have suck a beautiful woman... I have to say to myself, there is nothing to be insecure about.. nothing at all... anyways, they tipped me and we all chatte for a bit, then they went on their way. I was curious on if the guy was born that way or if maybe something happend to him, but I could not ask. all i could do was enjoy the fact that I saw probabbly one of the most positive people i have ever seen,. yet most people in his situation would be beggibng for a gun or some way to end, not thi guy he's smiling, rolling down the way on his b,mw box with a super hot asian/austrailian girl...

coincidentally I was telling my friend dash about this, and he said that sounds like this motivational speaker I have watched on you tube. so I look it up just now and what do I find, this is the same guy.... Hly shit man.... you gotta watch this guy.... he's famous. :) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v4uG2kSdd-4

the process of art

Often I find that when I am creating something I just flash right through it, no real thought involved, I just go with the flow and it becomes something. Yet art has a process that most are unaware of, and I have become all too familiar with. There are times that art seems to take forever. You start with a blank canvas or page, and nothing ever comes out of it. You stare at it for hours adding one line after another, one color then the next, wondering why you ever started the project in the first place.
Sometimes you have to research, you have to find the best materials for the project at hand, and you have to go through many trials and errors before you find the best way to complete your project. Sometimes you get frustrated, put the project aside and just sit and wait till the right moment hits you. Other times you start a project but it was not within your budget, so you have to bid you time cursing the whole thing while you save every extra penny you can to get the remaining materials. When I wrote www.morphsuits.com, I offered to paint some suits, to get some free suits and to build a portfolio and a business base I thought I was just going to be flashing through some projects, with my usual style of strange but trip art. Which of course I did do a couple of designs like that, but I was challenged with a remake of a movie prop. A Morph"TRON: suit!!! At first I wanted it to be just like the tron suits in the movie, that light up. I Ordered a test piece of EL Tape, just one little piece that would maybe have done one side of one of the arms cost 35 dollars, and that's without the power up link, which for some reason I thought I could find a mod or something at Frys Electronics...Guess not... Oh well...
So that Idea was a bust, for a small sheet that I could cut into desings, I could pay 20 dollars, but I would have to order about 400 to 800 dollars worth to make the proper cuttings for the design. So I had to skip that option, So I tried testing El Wire. It broke when I tried to bend it how I wanted it, then on top of that it is not thick enough. So I thought I would try glow paint. That didn't work out too well at all. As I thought I have never been very symmetrical with painting. So I had one more option to try, glow tape. I ordered it with the remaining money I had left and ordered the wide kind, and ordered enough to make sure I had extra in case I made a mistake... When it arrived it appeared perfect, I cut off a test piece and attached it to the fouled up morph suit from painting, the adhesive wont stick to the suit...
So I went to Micheals and founds some fabric glue brought it home and tested it on the tape and the suit. The solution was found. So Then I began to mark the tape where it needed cutting and shaping, I cut it, then peeled off the backing applied the glue, and attached one piece at a time and let each piece dry before I added another. The process was tedious and long and often annoying, but I kept at it, and completed my task. Its not 100 percent perfect, but for my first time ever doing something like this I am ecstatic about how it turned out.

2nd chance

I met a man in the harbor on ash Wednesday just the other day who in 1971 was shot in the head with a double barrel shot gun at point blank. he said for a long time he couldn't walk and he couldn't talk, but then he got better and now he is a motivational speaker.
he had the scares but very well reconstructive surgery to prove it. He was a very interesting man, said that life often gives us second chances...

a few moments of the life of a weaver

As a palm weaver I have met many interesting and strange people and seen many interesting and strange things.
When I first started I would go to Horton Plaza in the gaslamp of San Diego after work to weave palms. I was mainly there to make extra money so I could buy lunch at work the next day and also to meet people and flirt with cute girls.
Is the real reason I learned how to make roses in the first place.
I can;t begin to tell you how many women over the years I have met face to face because of the rose. While working there one day a man walked up and said hey I can do that, you are doing it wrong. His name is Pablo.
He showed me how to make a different rose, and also how to make a cross and a heart, and from time to time we would work together.
After learning these things along with a couple of other little tricks I went to the harbor one day to see if I could find Cris the man who taught me.
he wasn't there, as a matter of fact there wast anyone there, that performed or signed for money either. So I decided why not and I weaved that day. I made 100 dollars, so I came back the next day and made almost 200 and then I came back again and made another 50 or so. I was stoked, as on the weekend I made more then I had working all week at my normal job.. Not long after this, I was given an ultimatum at my job, I told my boss he could shove it because I could make it on my own. I started working the palms full time.
I had many things to learn still, but due to a family member passing away I had to leave California for a little while and return home to Texas.
When I made it back to San Diego, I decided to try again, and have been living off making roses and other items out of palms for a long time. I also started displaying my art as I make it, paintings and such and selling art work as well.
Over the years I have met people from different parts of the world, and they showed me tricks of trade. I bought books and learned secrets from them, and I have seen pictures of things other people make online and some of those things I figure out just by looking at. I have even created a variety of my own things along the way.
I have also taught myself how to play guitar, and I have taught myself how to do the spray paint space painting art. All becasue I had a passion to move this way.
so let not you dreams be stopped by anything because if you believe in yourself you can make it through life. and if you let you faith in what ever you believe take you through life, nothing ca stop you. you may find times when things may slow you down, but there is nothing that is impossible if you believe and you try to find a way as there is always a way.

resolution revolution

my new years resolution for 2011. first a welcomed goodbye to 2010 (good bye!!good riddance 2010!) Hello and good morning 2011 and all that it brings, the good and the bad, the fun and the sad, may 2011 be the best year we can make it.



This year as a resolution, I have many plans and ideas that I want to make happen. Making dreams realities is my main resolution this year. The next i to try and take positive steps, for this years resolution I am not quitting anything or giving anything up. I am not doing anything of the sort. Those are pointless resolutions to make, we never stick with them when we make them.

Instead of saying I am quitting smoking or anything like that this years other resolutions are as follows.



To promote love, and kindness. I already do this, but last year I have been a little less myself in that aspect...So I plan to do this more. not because Christ told me to, or because some strange god in the night told me its a good idea, not because I read it in a book somewhere, and not because its the right thing to do, but I like it when people show me love and kindness, and there's a saying that if you give out you get back. and you can never get enough of either love and kindness so why not.

2011 new year of free love everyone, yay...

(hey get your minds out of the gutter that's not free, I have to at least get a cookie.) :)=)



I am going to try and be more active and proactive this year, get out and do things, go for hikes and do some sort of exorcising, why because I wanna be able to walk long distances if I have to, and it would be a lot easier if i was in shape LOL... and I just might want to climb a mountain sometime this year and in my current state of energy I don't think I could do it. then again I am a little hung over and its 10 am lol. I am going to do more things with my friends, travel more, and get out of San Deigo quite a bit this year even if i have to hitchhike to do it.





I am going to use my creativity to do more than just entertain people this year. I am going to use it to manifest my destiny. :)



and on the note of resolution revolution I leave you all with a story I am fond of a fried told me.



A monk was sitting with his pupil and his pupil asked if there was a hell waiting for evil people in the after life. and a heaven awaiting to good.

The monk replied. " heaven and hell are here and now. think of them as two rooms. the first room has a pot sitting in the center of the room, it is filled with life giving soup. there are people all around the pot, and there is one spoon that is long enough each of the people can reach the pot with the spoon. yet the people in this room are starving because the spoon is too long for them to spoon soup into their mouths and every time they try they spill the soup that is in the spoon.

the next room is exactly the same there is a pot sitting in the center of the room, it is filled with life giving soup. there are people all around the pot, and there is one spoon that is long enough each of the people can reach the pot with the spoon. Yet these people are full and happy. The reason is because these people learned that if they used the spoon to feed their neighbors instead of selfishly trying to feed themselves, and in this they learned by feeding their neighbors they where also feeding themselves because in order to keep alive you have to keep your neighbor alive in order for your neighbor to keep you alive.

This is the difference of heaven and hell

both can be achieved on this earth here and now.